Chaos is Part of the Cure

“𝚂ᴑm𝐞𝑡ꭵm𝜚ｓ 𝚋𝐞𝒶𝘂𝗍ꭵ𝚏𝞄𝘐 𝕥𝙝𝑖ｎ𝗴𝑠 𝚐ｅ𝐭 𝒎℮𝓼𝕤ｙ. М𝓮𝐬ꜱ 𝚒ꜱ 𝜊𝗸𝘢ʏ”

-𝑩𝒐𝒍𝒖 𝑩𝒂𝒃𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒍𝒂

Sometimes, healing isn’t a straightforward path. It’s not a smooth journey filled with motivational quotes and serene moments of self-discovery. Instead, it can be messy, chaotic, and even reckless. It’s about navigating through the ups and downs and finding solace in the imperfections of the process.

In the chaos of healing, there might be moments when you need to be reckless. Not to say you are being irresponsible or harmful but just allowing yourself to break free from the constraints that have held you back. It’s about giving yourself permission to make mistakes and take risks. Sometimes, the most profound healing experiences come from moments of crazy and breaking away from the expectations we allow others to set for us and the ones we set for ourselves.

Sometimes it means making bad decisions, but with the people who love and understand you. It's those nights when you find yourself crying in the bar bathroom, mascara running down your face, with your best friend trying to clean you up. These are the moments when you realize that healing isn’t about perfection; it’s about being human. It’s about surrounding yourself with people who accept your flaws and stand by you through the chaos.

Sometimes it’s making yourself numb to allow yourself to feel again. It might sound crazy, but numbing the pain temporarily can create a space where you can gather the strength to face your emotions head-on. It’s about finding that delicate balance between shielding yourself from overwhelming feelings and gradually opening up to them.

Sometimes it’s about giving in to your emotions and cravings. Sometimes, you need to let go and surrender to the storm within. Whether it’s screaming into a pillow, indulging in comfort food, getting drunk with your friends or allowing yourself to cry until there are no tears left, these moments of release are crucial. They remind you that you are alive, that you are not just existing in the world that seems to be spinning around you, but you are truly alive.

One of the most powerful parts of my healing has been spending time with the people I love most like the girl in this picture who is going through it too. Not every struggle is the same, I know in our case we are dealing with two very different things. yet there’s an indescribable bond that forms when you share your struggles with others who understand, with the ones who you know won’t judge you for living in the mess. It’s in the late-night conversations, the shared tears, and those drunken bar bathroom nights that you find the strength to keep going.

Ultimately, healing is imperfect. It’s messy, unpredictable, and often doesn’t look the way you expect it to. But that’s where the beauty lies. It’s in the tear-streaked faces, the reckless nights, the moments of numbness, and the shared struggles that you find true healing. Embrace the messiness, give yourself grace, and remember that healing is a journey, not a destination.

In those moments of chaos and imperfection, you are growing, evolving, and finding your way to a brighter, more resilient version of yourself. So, the next time you feel overwhelmed by the messiness of healing, remind yourself that it's okay. Sometimes, the most profound healing comes from embracing the chaos and allowing yourself to be human.